New beginnings

I have not written anything in my blog for a couple of months now. So many things happened. With no maid and a wee girl in tow, makes it very difficult for me to have time even for myself. Alhamdulillah, today i get to write and do what i want. Hari Raya just passed, and my little girl is asleep. Today was her first day at the babysitter. The babysitter told me after i left, she cried a little then stood by the door and kept calling out for "umi, umi". Aargh! sacrifices we have to make...... and  all my boys are back in maahad and finally, my youngest son, has also left home for full time tahfiz.
It was a very difficult decision for me, as we found out, his maahad, has this strict rule about parents visiting  especially for the first 41 days. NO VISITATION or COMMUNICATION for 41 DAYS. He is my baby. With him leaving the nest, this means its the beginning of his quest for "Ilmu ALLAH". Now, each time he comes home, he is just like a visitor only.
I know, i have to let him go for the sake of our future. Not the future here, but in the next world. The eternal life.
I can only duaa that he will cope and like his new lifestyle. May Allah make it easy for him to be a hafiz.